Hmmmm, it's been a whirlwind week since Monday... I can't believe I feel this way after so long. Just two days ago I was so doubtful and sad and I lost all hope, now I feel almost the completely opposite way. The funny thing is that it was totally unexpected, who would have thought that it would happen to me? So much doubt and insecurity, I don't think that will ever completely stop, not even when you're in a relationship, unless you've been in it for a while. But I'm scared, how many times have I had my heart broken? Too fuckin many. But hell, like my best friend said, "love like you've never been loved." I'm NOT saying that I'm in love with him, but I like him a lot... But who is to give love a limitation, why can't you fall in love so quickly, I guess it's because you don't really know too much about them. But I get worried that he will play on me, he is a very charismatic guy and he seems quite flirtatious. It's NOT that I don't trust him... I think it's just that's it's happened to me a couple of times already that I'm still afraid that it will happen again. He is so honest and sweet with me, I haven't been so open with my feelings in so long, not even with my last ex, he makes me feel like I can tell him anything. At the same time I am scared because I know a lot of guys are scared off when one is so honest or open with them, which is kind of stupid, but guys are like that. At a point I don't even want to talk about him with others because I don't want to jinx it, I don't want to build it up so much and yet I'm just sometimes brimming with happiness. Although sometimes I feel that he doesn't have time for me, he's always busy hopping from place to place that the only time we talk is at the wee hours of the morning, not that I mind and not that I should make demands on anyone so early on, I don't even think that I should be making demands, but that's how I feel, and how you feel is never wrong, so my best friend says. I have so many good things to say, but I have to get ready for class for now.