Had quite a busy day today. It did rain, as my friend Krys predicted, HOWEVER, it did not rain for very long. He said it would rain yesterday, but it didn't until nighttime. The sun came out at around 11:00am just as we got to the last half of practice for P(ilipino) C(ulture) N(ight). Even i can't believe it, I'm in PCN, in just a few weeks I will be standing and performing for family and friends at the Bren Events Center. Barely a year ago I watched as my best friend danced on that same stage and I envied her for being part of that family. Who would have thought that I would get to meet such a dynamic group of people that I could feel comfortable calling my second family. I'm glad I gave myself the chance to get to know as many of them as I could, I can't believe how much I would have missed out on if I hadn't. Oh, and I also got to watch Save Ferris perform for Wayzgoose with my best friend.


Moving on to other things... I am beginning to shy away from the whole "gay scene" once again. I think I have hit the ebb of the exploration stage. It seems every couple of months or so I go on this binge, to explore the "scene" once more and see if anything has changed. Unfortunately, each and every time I run into promiscuous people who have nothing to seemingly offer except their one-track minds or their built bodies. It seems that nothing has changed, it doesn't seem like it ever will. However, I must admit that I have met a few individuals that have stood out and made me think a lot about myself and my relationships in regards to my friends and other gay people. It's saddening to see teenagers who try to commit suicide (I was at the point once in my life as well) and whenever I do I try to show them that there is something more out there, that it's not all about superficiality and baseness.